Freaky Fragile Fearless

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The story not to be read

I’ve passed the stage that I should not have to remember it again. Every time I try to walk, even run, my memory still stuck at that stage. I tried to run even stronger, even I spin like a warrior and jump like a giant frog, I still come back again. Not on a place. But on a person.
A person who does not even remember me and even had already walked straight forward so far, until I did not see him anymore.  A person whom I should walk together
Someone who never pay attention to me, but I still convinced that he pay attention to me, every detail of me. I had an adventure with lots of foxes, foxes that I do not even want them. But still,  the chimpanzee who I want. Chimpanzee who has been running so far, who has changed to be adult chimpanzee and found his partner.
Am I not a chimpanzee? And is it me what he’s looking for? No. Unfortunately not.
I am a female fox, not a charming chimpanzee with bananas on her hand. A fox who never learn to be adults. a fox who is a mess, like eating, and always want to have fun.
Should now a fox turned into a female loveable chimpanzee to be eligible for the chimpanzee? or should I  visited the witch’s cottage to ask her changing myself to be chimpanzee? or should I wait for that chimpanzee in the forest. or should I keep my destiny keep running, spinning, and jumping? until the female fox find the kindest fox?

The fox is scrabbling

I have decided a decision. To keep running, to keep spinning and keep jumping. Not to remember the chimpanzee. Or wait him in the forest. I’m running, passing the wonderful great places. I dont just keep running, spinning, and jumping. I fly now, but I have yet one wing and It’s truly fragile. I run in the noon, and sleep in the night. I look rainbow, fireball, the death tiger and the zebra who were crying while tried to slay himself look his couple dead. I eat edelweiss and drink tiger blood. And Those change me to be someone stronger. But those dont change me to be someone wicked. If I’m wicked at least I can assume that chimpanzee has hurted me so with his bearing, his vicious words. At least I can think that he just leave the scars on my whole heart. But the fact wasn’t like that. He did nothing, the nothing who hurted me.
I Try to find and found my kindest fox, my fate, who will receive me as a fox. Who will give me his chest to cry, sleep. But his shadow exists. The chimpanzee’s shadows. They look like run with me. Sleep with me and meet up in my dream. I should cast them out and command them to not follow me where I should be. Because my kindest fox will get anger because of that and will assume that I’m a chimpanzee. 
Those shadows sound like pull me back into the place where I shouldn’t be, somewhere I dont belong. Those shadows sound like say “dont walk away from me”. But those were just the bunch of shadows. Should I believe them? Or walk with their clues. The clues  which I know where it will be into. I can’t deny, skip, or just not to see. I automaticly see them, and try to follow them. 

New family, new life! BALI

New family, new life! BALI